Lately feel like I don't f*ckin belong here
This really ain't been my year
Tryna hide what I truly fear
That none of you love me true and dear
Feeling alone in a room with all my friends
Thought by now this feeling would start to end
But I can't help feelin you're playing pretend
When you type that and hit send
Time is running thin I feel it now
Tell me to "let go" f*ck, ok, how?
Skies above me hold dark clouds
And you say you love me but it's all just sounds
Clocks on the wall keep on their tick
And my ex didn't love me he just sucked my dick
This pit in my stomach got me feelin sick
Blood orange eyes burnin like a Bic
Why do you keep me around, just get on with it
Tell me to get out of town and I'm worthless
I know I'm better of dead don't be a liar
You'll only love me dressed in funeral attire
(Shinobi, wake up it's now or never dumb f*ck)
Well here I am on the very edge
I've convinced myself that if I'm dead
Maybe I could get a couple internet points
I'll bet that's what you'd like
Well I'm not a toy
I won't let nobody puppeteer my life
Tryna snatch my happiness and take my wife
I'm a mother f*ckin soldier, suicide gang
That's how you know when I die I'll still be a king
Shout out to anyone who f*cked me over
You can kiss my ass if you want some closure
F*ck you I will never lose composure
Hang you up like a stupid poster
Ride this gun like a rollercoaster
And when I die I'll have more dough than Homer
Why do you keep me around, just get on with it
Tell me to get out of town and I'm worthless
I know I'm better of dead don't be a liar
You'll only love me dressed in funeral attire
Fact that my feelings about my feelings
And I don't know how to feel
To me you perfect but you make me feel worthless
And I'm dead-ass for real
You say that you love me but I know that it's f*ck me
And that shit hurt for real
But they say love 'posed to heal
But instead it destroys and kills
And forever I live I can't die
A thousand ate like a brick I can't lie
Broke outta my shell I'm no longer shy
Broke free from your spell I'm not longer high
And it's forever "bye" no "hello"
And we ain't gotta beef, no smoke
And we ain't gotta speak, that's no quotes
We ain't gotta keep in touch, no poke
As long as you get it you got it
Tryna go with them lies just stop it
Shit, and I know you for real
Plus you can't lie to Ke or Kalil
And you couldn't meet me if you met me
I could show you that I'm loyal if you let me
Cryin out like please accept me
But my problems won't let me
Leave you alone, even though you be leading me on
Feel so right but I know that it's wrong
Contemplating on what's goin on
Is it real? I don't know
Only time will tell
Cuz they only love you when you dead or in jail
Why do you keep me around, just get on with it
Tell me to get out of town and I'm worthless
I know I'm better of dead don't be a liar
You'll only love me dressed in funeral attire