ROTC - not good at grieving Lyrics

I don't really know how to react When I heard that your gone it really stopped me in my tracks
Now I'm thinking about the past
And even though I ain't see you much
Just know your name was in my heart with a tag
My brother text me, like how you taking the news
I don't know how to answer that So I don't even reply, that's my bad

Staring at the message like I can't respond back
Trying to hide the pain that's in my eyes
I just wanna be the best me, I won't lie
But I always fall short before the line, yeah
Just got done, dropping my mom and brother off to a flight

Oh, I wonder if they'll see you in the sky
Oh, maybe they can tell you their last goodbyes
Man, I hope God's real and you doin fine
I'm not good at grieving, but I'm still trying

And I can't find the words, my tongue's been tied in
I know where I go, you'll be in my heart, even when it's silent
I just hope I make you proud, I'ma make it promise
I'm not good at grieving, but I'm still trying

And I can't find the words, my tongue's been tied in
I know where I go, you'll be in my heart, even when it's silent
I just hope I make you proud, I'ma make it promise
I'm not good at grieving, I'm still trying