1993 Video (MV)

I was born '93, life was good in '93
Now I'm out here searching for happiness like where the f*ck is '93, yeah
Years have past but I'm still the same old me, same old g
Same old sony waterproof walkman always playing the same cd
College dropout, timeless, time is not on my side but feel it
I'm in it now 'til the finish, I swear
I was born in a blizzard, but it supposed to be spring, what happened to spring
Why is it so cold, what the f*ck does this mean, damn
I made it but I have days where I kind of wish I didn't
Life's a bitch and I'll admit it, you can die any minute, yeah
I'm living right now but lately I've been lost in the past
F*ck it I'll stay young forever 'cause growing up is a trap, you know it
This the truth I tell, only truth I tell
Only lying if I told you that I do not keep it real, damn
Back when I ain't know what worry was, yeah life was good
Telling mommy I miss daddy, always asking where he was
One nine nine three, four times for my mom, four times for my dad though
I want thank them for a lot but its f*cked up, I have to do it through rap though
Damn, we don't talk anymore, damn, I can't talk anymore
Damn, we don't fight anymore, damn, I can't fight anymore
I'm tired of all this silence 'cause my thoughts they just want out
I try to open up but in the end I feel left out, like shit
I feel like I don't belong, I feel like I cry alone
Empty home, please dont miss me when I'm gone though
Me and my brother we growing apart
Ain't spoke in weeks but he's still in my heart
Went to the interview, aint get the job
Went to auditions, and aint get the part, damn
Where do I go from here, where do I go from here, yeah
I won't give up right here, gotta go up from here, yeah
Family trips to st. Louis and shit, I miss that shit like always dog
On the road to stardom, guess I took the long way dog
I miss gram, I miss fam- when will I see you again
I have no one because the drugs took my friends away
Yeah, drugs took all of my friends away
They were mine first, I hate drugs so f*cking much yeah
Drugs took my friends away, yeah
Drugs took all of my friends away
Damn, damn, damn
Damn, damn, damn
Damn, damn, damn

God has a plan though, I believe it, I believe it, yeah
I'm seek to achieve it, yeah, ain't gon' leave it to beaver no
I wear my heart on my sleeve- so the f*cking world can see
My mama said I'm the best in the whole wide world yeah
Really thinking 'bout how much happier I would be
If I didn't ever lose my f*cking girl, damn
You have to suffer through it, gotta learn
Let it fall, watch it crash and burn, crash and burn
It's life and this just how it go
Round and round like a f*cking merry-go, I'm not sad- I'm hysterical
I miss rashoody, hamoody, nafisa
Hasoony, and noonie too
I miss m, I really do, if only they knew
Those are my days ones, they kept me grounded me as I grew
Now I'm grown and can't pick up a phone, or visit for a few
I'm f*cked up and I know it, I hate to say it, hate to show it
I need saving from myself, I'm not one to be heroic but
When does a hill become a mountain
I hope me getting high doesn't cloud your judgement
I'm ready for lift off, I'm ready let's go
I'm back on my dean again, I'm ready to glow
This is not daily post, I just to have press the issue
What's gotten into you lately, what's w you, who's w you, are you okay
I told myself I wouldn't check your tweets today
You know I couldn't help myself- I just did it anyway, damn
I know you're up you tweeted sleepless nights at 2:27
I'm not creeping, I'm just tryna find leverage on you
I'm f*cked up and I know it, I hate to say it, hate to show it
I need saving from myself, I'm not one to be heroic but
God has a plan for me