Ryly - The Wicked + the Art Lyrics

Jesus I'm sorry if this makes you mad
I've said it a million times over again
Jesus I'm sorry, I mean no offense
But I somehow feel more free than I've ever been
I'm looking for the answers
Some maybe I won't find
I'd rather come up empty
Than waste all of my time
I've seen your disciples
I stood in their place
I'm told that there's healing
But I've only felt shame
I want to trust the stories
The wicked and the art
But how everybody's acting
I don't want no part
My daunting dispositions
It keeps me up at night
Some comfort from the shadows
But looking for the light
Jesus I'm trying to trust you again
And everyone tells me how you're a great friend
If you can hear me, just give me some grace
'Cause I may never get there, but please don't throw me away