Saint Diablo - Adios En-Amigos Lyrics

I never meant to abandon you but if I did you probably deserved it. I never meant to break your heart but if I did I'm sure you deserved it. I never meant to get in between your God, your family, or your country. But if I did I got to ask you was I worth it? In this world, you don't ask you don't get. In this world, you don't ask, you don't know. I want to know is this the last time we say goodbye? 'Cause I don't want to hold my feelings back. I need to know are we going to finally let this go 'cause I don't want to hold my feelings back. You say it doesn't matter. I say it never did. But I'd like to think there's still room for interpretation. The way you look at me leaves me disarmed. And if there's nothing left then I should just move on. If I could understand this, if I could just get this, I think I'll be alright. Still holding on. I don't want to be the last one holding on to something that's already gone, already dead, just a paradise in my head. In my head. Paradise in my head. I want to know is this the last time we say goodbye? 'Cause I don't want to hold my feelings back. I need to know are we going to finally let this go 'cause I don't want to hold my feelings back. The way you look at me leaves me disarmed. And if there's nothing left then I should just move on. And if I could understand this, if I could just get this, I swear I'll be alright. ...What am I still holding on to?