Finding Home Video (MV)

I've spent my entire adult life with this music like I'm delightfully stupid
Siphoning hype from the tunes, igniting my vice, I abuse it
Like it might be a lucrative line of sight for this lunatic
Lose my life in this lunacy, lie to lighten the rueful regret
Bittersweet symphonies, sickening, sinking into me
The seconds keep on ticking away but the whispers sing to me
And I listen... from within me, toxic energy's
Emitted, I'm omitting all sense from my liturgy
What have I done? What the f*ck have I become?
How can I be honest with myself in my conundrum
Of a "come-up"? What the f*ck is up with me? I'm nothing
But I've come to see my love for Tisse as something... what

We all tryna find our place on this earth
But we're feeling out of place and it hurts
We gotta learn that nobody fits perfect
We been digging deep, but just scratching the surface
It's not easy to find home
Believe me, I'd know

I've gone off my medulla oblongata
God I wanted to be the hottest, immodest, I'm in a sauna
Got it all the way up, up, I'm lit up, honest
But I'm humble enough to chalk it up to some nonsense
So I know "no, no" is
The response that I got for my thoughts, so alone
I blossomed a lot from my plot homegrown
But I'm not the imposter they want, go rogue
A raw cynic, you bet I been all in and I'm
Stitching together rhetoric, ever the calm idiot
Whatever's said is a lesson in false flippant
And frivolous odd wishes I've written, the plot's thickening

We all tryna find our place on this earth
But we're feeling out of place and it hurts
We gotta learn that nobody fits perfect
We been digging deep, but just scratching the surface
It's not easy to find home
Believe me, I'd know

This one is for anyone who's tryna find their face
Or anyone who's in a rut and tired of today, so out of place
I get it man I've been it, but I'm fine enough to say
That I've been in it for a minute and I'm finding my own way, so ey
Every morning I wake up faking it, take my faith and I cage it
It's that feeling like I quit and gave up on my aspirations
That sinking feeling I get in my gut when I act complacent
It's that feeling like I never live up to the expectations
That I place on myself... I've been a bum, nothing
I'm odd and a bother, my fault I flaunt it, I'm a nut but
I'm a fully formed and functioning adult, motherf*cker
The f*ck you mean I'm broken? I'm insulted motherf*cker, yeh

We all tryna find our place on this earth
But we're feeling out of place and it hurts
We gotta learn that nobody fits perfect
We been digging deep, but just scratching the surface
It's not easy to find home
Believe me, I'd know