Sauce Is Matisse - Just Thinking Lyrics

Uh, a lot of times
I uh... I think I think too much

I'm on my own and I'm all alone
I can feel it in my bones so I know I'm broke
But I focus sole on a broken soul
I know I'm prone to going solo so I say
I'm unwell cuz of all my thoughts, I blame myself like it's all my fault
I hate myself but I make myself entertain myself like it's all I've got
Shame myself and I'll walk it off, I tamed my hell but I'm often lost
I'm off in a fog and I'm mocking it all but it's awful and awkward, appalling, God dammit
Caught up in the meaning of it all
Can it be quantified if freedom is a false advantage?
I'm haunted by the weakness of us all
Candid cuz all I wanna be is what I thought, branded
I gotta hand it to the man, this manic mark's damaged
Dancing with the damned and daring darkness, vanish
Now I t's all unknown, so don't overload
I'd say I'll take it slow but that'd be so a joke
I'm emotional or I'm comatose
No middle of the road though I'm both
Lotta feelings are felt loud, all the feelings of self doubt
I'm confused in my health now as I'm chewing myself out
I've been rude to myself, callous and moody as hell
I'm 'bout to be cooped up and loud and loopy, while improving myself
Proud, but I'm exhausted, thoughts are all a motherf*cking mosh pit
I've been off script, aw shit, I been running on a raw binge often
I'm bout to get me what I want
And what I want's a solid coffin to fall in fallen and lock the hinge
But I'm kinda cross, kinda wanna talk, kinda wanna calm me down
I kinda wanna call what I see but I'm offbeat, bet I've been a ball, so bounce
I'm watching em all leave, odd's what they call me, I couldn't be a posse clown
Cuz I've often thought about raw shit I'll never talk about
Nope