Lately Video (MV)

You know the dude's still on it, who still want it
Got it all figured out, but the dude's still running
A noose helped me figure out my true self, hunnid
But I lose him in elements of who I'm becoming, I'm a
Ghost...and I know me the most
Low key I'm hoping to go be alone
Coping with copious soul-leeching locusts
I'm choking on jovial notions of hope
But I'm lost, and that's all
I grin and bear it like I care about the minimum, but that's false
But that's Sauce, and Matt's Oz
Cuz I've been hidden behind a curtain, I'm pitiful, but that's off, yuh

I can't say I'm not a product of my pain, ey
I gotta make it up from the bottom of my shame, ey
So if I ever get to god then I'ma blame me
But lately, lately I've been
Hurting myself, unsure of myself, I've been
Worried as hell, while I'm learning myself, ey
I can't say I'm not a product of my pain, ey
But lately, lately

I've been tossing and turning, obnoxious and nervous
My thoughts say I'm always at fault for the hurt and
It's all been a burden, so often I'm learning
That coffins and curses are all I deserve and
Know, and I don't mean to drone
But no need to notice me skulking along
No need for phony emotions, alone
I've been honing the process of knowing a soul
Now I do, and I'm through
I grin and bear it, but I'm aware I'm never good enough to find truth
So I'll lose, til I prove
It isn't fair to pick comparisons and pin em up, and I'm you, uh

If self-reflection is a lesson, let it lend a hand
I can't accept the dead surrender of a better man
What's unacceptable's a blessing, I don't give a damn
So why'm I questioning myself
Not this again
If self-reflection is a lesson, let it lend a hand
I can't accept the dead surrender of a better man
What's unacceptable's a blessing, I don't give a damn
So why'm I questioning myself
Not this again

I can't say I'm not a product of my pain, ey
I gotta make it up from the bottom of my shame, ey
So if I ever get to god then I'ma blame me
But lately, lately I've been
Hurting myself, unsure of myself, I've been
Worried as hell, while I'm learning myself, ey
I can't say I'm not a product of my pain, ey
But lately, lately