I remember having dreams being black wasn't one of them
Hung around the dope boyz wanted to be one of them
Realize I was different from the others never quite fit in
Always had to stay up on my guard I had to fight to win
Started slippin up in school skipping class making friends
Demeanor started changing they dont know what got into me
Smoking on that doja didn't know that it was laced with clean
My cuzzo hit the chopper once now he is a dope fiend
Could of been my story but the lord has always kept me
In my darkest hours know the lord has never left me
All these shootings on the news they starting to affect me
Ain't no justice for a nigga whose gonna protect me
Yeah i know the lord has never left me
Even though i sin he still protects me
My momma said I need the lord's protection
The devil tryna block all of my blessings
They asking why a nigga keep on pushing on
I gotta make a mil so i can bring it home
I dont believe he brought me this far to leave me
Try to find a way to feel some peace but life ain't been the same
When you lose someone you really love you'll never be the same
Sometimes I feel the pull to make a change and go another way
I pray heavenly father can you take this pain away
Dear momma yeah I know I made you cry
Dear God I'll do my best to make it right
I'm so tired of the struggle nigga always had to fight
I'm battling these demons feel like I was born to die
I'm gonna live my best life
Feel like it's the right time
I'm headed for the city lights
A nigga bout to blow
Never turnin on my bruhs
Or the ones who showed me love
Who help me get it out the mud
I'll take them everywhere I go
Yeah i know the lord has never left me
Even though i sin he still protects me
My momma said I need the lord's protection
The devil tryna block all of my blessings
They asking why a nigga keep on pushing on
I gotta make a mil so i can bring it home
I dont believe he brought me this far to leave me