Saze - Shaky Shaky (feat. Leah V) Lyrics

Straight jacket better be Gucci
Better be Fendi
Better be Louie
Better be Balmain, my head unruly
Padded room in the penthouse
Gorgeous view but no way out
What to do? I got no route
They ain't take my belt
So you wanna hangout?
Wait, snap out of it
Might snap, might slip
Bus pass, took trip
Maybe if I get on road
Take my mind off of the cold
Corners of a nigga brain
When I get down I'm ashamed
Hate it when you see me mope
Is life one big joke?
Punch lines
Bruised up my psyche
Meet peace
Well it seem unlikely
Counseling
I met folks just like me
Hotlines
Calm me down quite nicely
Depressed
Mixed with anxiety
My bipolar disorder undiagnosed
Ain't overdosed yet, baby, but I been close
2009 I had my first episode
Went to bed trembling
Woke up I walk passed my dad without mentioning
All of the issues been wrapping me up
I've had friends turn apathy up
Couldn't care less and they label me extra
Yeah, I'm messed up

Nah, I ain't okay
Not for play
Everyday
I get shaky shaky
I can't find a way
Everyday
I get shaky shaky
Soul about to break
Everyday
I get shaky shaky
Nah, I ain't okay
Not for play
Everyday
I get shaky shaky

Lately lately
Questioned if the universe may hate me
Questioned if, um, God is flaky
Sorry, was thinking, maybe
Problematic
Don't tell me shit
I'm melancholic
Swallowed by the sacrilegious
Guardian angels off in the distance
Is this
Part of the process?
My emotions
Running wild and lawless
All across this
Peanut butter
Colored
Skin
All my pain is stuck within
Shaky shaky, hands got tremors
Scared to start endeavors
Scared I'll never get better
On the hunt for pleasure
But I don't mean pussy, a nigga want peace, a nigga want zen
A nigga want cheese, you know a nigga turnt, on ten
Oxygen is needed
Stability depleted
It comes in waves and seasons
I'm odd and uneven

Nah, I ain't okay
Not for play
Everyday
I get shaky shaky
I can't find a way
Everyday
I get shaky shaky
Soul about to break
Everyday
I get shaky shaky
Nah, I ain't okay
Not for play
Everyday
I get shaky shaky
Nah, I ain't okay
Not for play
Everyday
I get shaky shaky
I can't find a way
Everyday
I get shaky shaky
Soul about to break
Everyday
I get shaky shaky
Nah, I ain't okay
Not for play
Everyday
I get shaky shaky

Maybe it's the moment milliseconds before the elevator pulsates to a sudden stop
Or maybe it's when the car pauses over a speed bump and insides bounce backwards
Maybe it's the moment before a pen drops amid linoleum
The gasp I make while I wonder whether the world is watching
I think that's how it feels when Zoloft floats its way into my mouth
Chemically settles my skittled spirit
Delicious alteration
I'm exhausted with the warmth of suicide circulating skin like winter wind
Heal me, my little pill
Fill me to the brim of sedation

Nah, I ain't okay
Not for play
Everyday
I get shaky shaky
I can't find a way
Everyday
I get shaky shaky
Soul about to break
Everyday
I get shaky shaky
Nah, I ain't okay
Not for play
Everyday
I get shaky shaky