Schmidt - Trial (feat. Jess Schmidt) Lyrics

You taught me love is never free
That love is earned conditionally
I learned it was easier to nod and agree
Than to share
Share a piece of me
But I tried
I tried
Oh, where has it all gone
You left me in the dark
Wondering how
Wondering when
Wondering what I could have done
To save myself
So I tried
But it was never what you wanted
I tried
But it was never good enough
It was always a lie
That we lived for the outside
I tried
But I could never be you
In your golden castle
You sit, not wondering what you did
To cause me pain, only
When will I realize my mistakes
And come crawling on my knees
Saying mama please
Still I try
But it's not what you wanted
I try
But it's never good enough
It's still just a lie
That we live for the outside
So I'll try to never be you
Going off on my own
You made me choose
Will it be a life living free
Or life not living for me
You deceived me, mother
I believed you when you said
There was no other
You deceived me, mother
You only loved me
When I didn't choose another
Try to live life how I want it
I'll try, 'cause I know I'm good enough
I won't live a lie that I built for the outside
I'll try to never be you
I'll try
It'll be a life living free
I'll try
A life I'm living for me
I'll try
It'll be a life living free
I'll try
A life I'm living for me