Sebastian Stephan - Happiness Lyrics

Just tryin to be really focused right here
Just gotta be focused
No doubt - it's been a long time man
Actually, it's been a while since I recorded the last song
So I gotta get back and focus
Been doin beats for a while now I gotta get back to rhymin
Sometimes this life got me thinkin
Man, tell me is this real?
How do good people struggle and the fake feel free
If it wasn't for insurance I'd be livin at the poverty line
It's a shame that what gets radio play and I'm not even signed
I put my energy in music and put it all on the line
It's so hard to keep composure
When hours and hours of my time I spent on beats and poems
My girl nearly lost her mind over messed up jobs
And I nearly resorted to guns, almost became a dealer cause I lost my jobs
And college didn't help
It stripped me of my money and I wasted good years of my life tryin to finish it
At least I made good friends but almost all of them are livin in
Different cities and I feel the need
Of real companionship
Stranded where I have to do some kind of apprenticeship
I just wanted happiness
But never did accept I had to grow through many tragedies
Just wanted to feel realness
Be fearless
But without the Lord I felt cheerless
These trials and tribulations gave shape to my character
I prepared for a short run but had to realize life is a race in a marathon
My faith gives healing to my soul, I shouldn't worry 'bout a thing
Surely now I bring
Many skills to the table
Willin and able to put the work in for the right outcome
But when the outcome ain't income I'm about done
Finished where I left off - where I've come from
But my lady encourages me to keep pushin on
Even where it gets uncomfortable like the seat cushion's gone
And get up after defeat like Lebron
Some more of my people have come to live in Cologne
So now I don't feel so alone
Sermon's and books
Urge me to look deep into my spiritual side
Which in the first 20 years of my life
I sternly had pushed not just a bit to the side
I could have ended up a murderous crook with no Messiah
I just wanted happiness
But never did accept I had to grow through many tragedies
Just wanted to feel realness
Be fearless
But without the Lord I felt cheerless
These trials and tribulations gave shape to my character
I prepared for a short run but had to realize life is a race in a marathon
We're just tryin to be happy
Little time for relaxin
We're just tryin to be happy
Little time for relaxin
We're just tryin to be happy
Little time for relaxin
I need some time to lay back and see the fruits I earned from my labor
I don't wanna be concerned with the paper
We're just tryin to be happy
Little time for relaxin
We're just tryin to be happy
Little time for relaxin
We're just tryin to be happy
Little time for relaxin
I need some time to lay back and see the fruits I earned from my labor
I don't wanna be concerned with the paper
We're just tryin to be happy
Little time for relaxin
We're just tryin to be happy
Little time for relaxin
We're just tryin to be happy
Little time for relaxin
I just wanted happiness
But never did accept I had to grow through many tragedies
Just wanted to feel realness
Be fearless
But without the Lord I felt cheerless
These trials and tribulations gave shape to my character
I prepared for a short run but had to realize life is a race in a marathon