Shout out to Elin for helpin me make this beat
Let me let out the frustration I got built up inside me right here on the microphone
So I won't implode
It's so hard
I was tryin to do college for so long
Kept failin now i'm tryin to move on
I'm givin private lessons all I get is frowns
Cause I don't even got a car
I'm just tryin to stay strong
Don't know if we can afford to pay our rent for long
How am I gonna stay fresh and keep lookin positive
Get euros and dollars in
No matter how hard it is
With this rap thing I can't call it quits
Have to stay real man
I'm wrestlin the feeling
Of pessimism, building on my interests so I started job training - educating children
Tryin to be the father I never had when I step up in the building
Hope that I'm not passing on my flaws
But I have to do a job where I can stand up for a cause
I can't undo my past and make it right
Or reroute my way to paradise
I know I can't do it on my own, the way is Christ
I need to reroute my way to better days
Never sway due to escapades
Try gettin paid to set it straight
Staying principled with steady faith
A lot of times it feels like He left us on our own
I'm tryin to see the times of despair as actually just growin
Still I'm holdin on to faith and I'm lettin people know
Tryin to stay away from those cigarettes and beer bottles
All these other rappers just see dollars
When they write their verse, I'm thinking of the message you could glean from it
They wanna battle with fierce frontin
I'm just tryin to give a shoulder - you can lean on it
Take you thru a tour of my life
Sharin my perspective thru all these rhymes
Still dreamin to make life easier for my soon-to-be-wife
Hope we're soon to have kids
Soon to be rich
But I feel rich as far as my soul goes
Gettin up every day to face responsibility, I'm not a no-show
I can't undo my past and make it right
Or reroute my way to paradise
I know I can't do it on my own, the way is Christ
I need to reroute my way to better days
Never sway due to escapades
Try gettin paid to set it straight
Staying principled with steady faith
It's been a long time since anybody said I was lame as a emcee
I'm workin on my writtens and on spittin spontaneously
Tryin to make a name in a genre like Bruce Wane and Bruce Lee
Someone you're payin to see
Tryin to be all smiles but the pain is still real
I never knew how to prove my
Haters wrong and reroute my way to the future
Back when I was smokin weed daily I used to stay in a stupor
Then it ate up my cool and my brain just got bruised up
When I wasn't lookin for my woman God has taken me to one
So now I got Him to thank
I'm not sinless and sometimes things seem senseless man
But I trust I'm in His hand
And I really wanna see heaven, hope I'll get a chance
I can't undo my past and make it right
Or reroute my way to paradise
I know I can't do it on my own, the way is Christ
I need to reroute my way to better days
Never sway due to escapades
Try gettin paid to set it straight
Staying principled with steady faith