October 23rd, 2023 - a letter to the woman who broke my heart
That day started out like any other
I woke up to a"good morning" Snapchat of your beautiful face
It's been about a year of off and on talking
Something I always wished would evolve into more, a real relationship
You and I, 29, seemed like we understood each other
Whenever I heard from you, my face would light up and I'd smile so much
I don't have the most attractive smile
But, when you're the culprit, my insecurities fade away
I accept that you're a single mother
Working three different jobs to support you and your son
I respect you so much for it
You told me I was different from all the other guys
That I make you smile, that I'm so sweet
That I gave you endless butterflies
So fast forward to the day you invited me over
To be with you while you recovered from getting your wisdom teeth pulled
I expected nothing and I wanted nothing but to be with you
So when I got more than what I bargained for, I took it as us making love
As each day passed by afterward
Things were still the same but I felt unstoppable
Then came the weekend we picked to go out on a date
Then I heard silence
There was no good morning, no text, no snap
And I couldn't understand what was going on
With each passing day afterward
My insecurities started to reappear and I kept blaming myself
There were days I couldn't fight back the tears
Times I had to hide at work so no one could see me cry
And days I didn't want to get out of my bed
I felt so weak, so crushed, so (f*cking) empty
But, I can't and will never be mad at you for it
Part of me wishes you'll reappear and give me closure
But, I still wish you the very best
So thank you for letting me be a part of your life
Although it was very brief