SHVUN - Run Lyrics

Clock is ticking my drinks been sipped spilled
Lipton over the sheets no sleeping kill
All your weaknesses the voices tell me you
Run this shit so f*ck the noise Imma
Blow this shit all these dark thoughts come
Creeping slowly and I can't stop hopped
In the backseat of that black car asked
"Who you meeting" I said nah that's not
What I'm doing f*ck friends they don't mean
Shit to me don't talk to me I'm
Trynna Houdini while the city's fast asleep
Cause I'm still trynna keep the peace even
If I think that the world did do me dirty
There's some good people that were there for me
Though the inner circle's never felt more distant
Guess I never fit in
I used to love gazing at the city lights
Now it looks so different on this starry night
Took advance now it's time that I paid the price
My life's a gamble so I rolled that dice
How will I go out? Maybe with a
Bang or just a whimper no
Time to linger sirens ringing in the distance press
Down my finger let the fire flicker out
Lord please come help me cause I'm in
Need of your guidance your highness cause right
Now I've lost direction been hearing
Whispers I think I'm tempted sent you
Prayers for years hoping one day I'll hear some
Good news from you it'll all be worth it but I'm
Losing hope I'm out of time leave
Me afloat if I'm to survive
I lost my
Mind a long time ago I don't need no help
I just need a way out tried and
Tried to find divine reasons my life
Devoted to God but I'm ill I'm sick of
Dragging you down I'm sick of you saying I don't
Amount to nothing I'm sick I Embarrass you in
Public I'm sick of being a constant shortcoming
Wished I could grow to show you that I'm worth loving
Deep through the darkness my heart fell
The devil's alive see him dangling
Sweet reprieve while I'm on my knees begging
Won't you please God please release me I'm
Sick of the lies I'm sick of betrayal man
F*ck you all I don't even need you
I'm sick of living man f*ck the feelings I have
Sick thoughts I'm sick forreal
(Just smile a little)
For what motherf*cker I
Hate the world I hate myself I hate
My lover I hate that I gotta be the
Bigger person all the f*cking time I
Hate the church always trynna tell me there's more
To this story I hate it when they start
Crying for me praying I get better I'm
Boutta break I'm just f*cking fed up
(Run)
Back to the wall where the fallen
Soldiers are honored guess that death is the only
Answer for me I'm tired never got my
Lancer before my fire faded
Out lost my desires the higher
Being inspires all but retired now
I've lost my hope mind's feeling
Lighter tonight it'll all be over
Wanted fame and the riches ended up
Insane thinking everyone's switching bottled up
Hate now it's spewing the truth is leaking
Neglect from the world consumed me just a
Wannabe poet just a wannabe stoic I'm
Cursed to this moment I've lost my focus I'm
At my lowest I'm the seeds you're sewing they've
Grown these the fruits of your f*cking labor never
Got no favors called me disappointing comparing
Me with all your friends and colleagues like this a
Game or something just a piece to cash in or
Sacrifice for a big promotion I'm
No investment won't get returns so you
Went ahead and lost all interest how the
F*ck should I take it when my own f*cking father gives
Up on my future calling me a failure
I'm all alone for this moment I'm
In control of where I'm going waited
All along for this moment got my
Written notes all locked and loaded no
Goodbyes or apologies on it just a
Couple words to close this story like
F*ck you I hate you wish I never met you
Eat shit lil bitch this is all because of you
Stop calling me it's over now
I'm at the end of my road now
What's the point of dragging shit out when the
Ending's already been spelled out this is it
My time is over had your
Chance to hop off this roller coaster was
Supposed to coast us together have a
Toast grow old together one step away
Is all it takes my awaited break
Death's warm embrace take a
Deep breath prepare to descend this is the
Only way to be loved check my
Phone just one last time I see the
Message with my mama crying come back home
Where are you now? Mom wants to see you
Man what the f*ck am I doing?