Shway - Selfishness Lyrics

Huh, I find these things are all connected
I can't expect a return for the love that I've invested
I guess it, is the same for when I give affection
I've gotta recognize it's my decision no one else's
That's the price of love so I guess I gotta learn to pay that
It's just strange how when I hate, then I'm sure to get my pay back
Huh, and if I tell you that I love you I should mean it
Instead of needing you say it back for you to see it, man
Huh, and I don't wanna be selfish
But it's hard when I'm insecure and you're making me jealous
I know you don't mean to do it, but sometimes I feel helpless
Cause I wanna be your man, the only one you ask for help
It's difficult for me to see the things from your perspective
When I'm so focused on myself and how I'm effected
But I'm grateful for the ways we talk about it
Cause even though I'm selfish, we find a way together to walk up out it
Huh, and I understand it's hard for you
I acknowledge how it's been a real obstacle
And I care about your well being
So please trust that I see you and am with you in this whole thing
Huh, and I love you to pieces, I just struggle with some things and I know my own weakness
But it doesn't mean that, I'm not trynna get better
So I'll continue as I'm writing these letters
Huh, I'm so selfish, I'm selfish as ever
I get impatient like I'm waiting forever
I can't take it cause I break when it's time to get better
But I'd hate to just get an A for the effort
When I know I didn't do enough
And I know I didn't prove my love
Like I'm still thinking of myself when I say it's us
Huh and that's the problem it's a mess
The more I'm like this is the more I'm like myself less
I'm selfish I'm not selfless, and that's why I'm thinking less of myself
Instead of myself less, huh
And now I'm seeing just how deep this well gets
There's a lot I've gotta ponder, and ya know
Huh my father told me I should serve
Start today and be a servant in your life
Cause you better have some practice if you wanna love your wife
Yeah I wanna love my wife
Huh, if I'm selfish
I know the only way to help is
To stop acting like I'm helpless
And start acting like I should and start helping, huh
It's the type of love I've gotta learn
It's the type of love that no one earns
It's type of love that overcomes when I want first
It's the type of love that I prayed for in my demo singing Face to Face to the Lord whenever I saw His hurt
Huh, He's so beautiful
By my side when I'm such a fool
I'd be the one outa ninety nine, ninety nine times out of a hundred
And He still comes and runs for me
Showing me that His love isn't done with me
And now I've gotta imitate
Which looks like taking care of others dinner plates
Or being patient with my girlfriend if I have to wait
Or asking mom if there's a way that I can help today
I pray that God can give me strength
Cause there's some moments when I don't have the heart to give
And I feel like doing my own thing
But I wanna learn to love without conditions
While expecting nothing in return
Cause that how you've been loving me
Huh, yeah cause that's how you've been loving me