Siddartha - F'real Lyrics

I was with the squad bumping
They don't even notice nothing
They don't know a thing about your journal
How it got me bugging
Stranger I can hardly stomach
What I'm reading
They don't get the f*cking feeling
They don't wanna kick it
Told me that I need some orthopaedics
Alright cool fam
I may be a new man
Maybe I don't need nobody
Double negatives won't stop me
I might do this shit alone
Even if they call me cocky
Stranger let me be like you
That's when I hear my homie tell me
F'real?
That's how you feel?
Man you ain't acting right
Shit I'm feeling kinda tight
(Oh god, oh god)
F'real?
(Oh god, oh god)
Man that's how you feel?
(Oh god, oh god)
Dawg you ain't acting right
(Oh god, oh god)
I'm feeling kinda tight
Sometimes I feel that way
Sometimes I feel insane
Sometimes I don't even know what I feel
Sometimes I look at the
Roses, people, beautiful things
And think to myself that
I should destroy them
To see if they real
Stranger do you hear me?
The words that you've written
Have gotten me tripping
I'm reading them oh so clearly
They haunting
Oh so eerie
The pain I see inside your words
The hope that you just might emerge
Is dashed away the lines are blurred
I'm asking god if I've been cursed
(Oh god, oh god)
F'real?
(Oh god, oh god)
That's how you feel?
(Oh god, oh god)
Man you ain't acting right
(Oh god, oh god)
Shit I'm feeling kinda tight
I feel like I might break
The way that the world is falling on top of me
Whether it's night
Day
No matter what I do
I'm failing to fall asleep
Trauma replays
I cannot pick up the phone that be calling me
To all of my friends and my family
Hear the truth in my apology
How the f*ck do I explain?
I can't even really see straight
Losing my strength these days
Everyday a f*cking weekday
Wonder when the f*cking weak end
I don't wanna have to pretend
I don't wanna have to lie to you
Try to keep eye to eye with you
But this shit hard
This shit crazy
How the f*ck is this shit real?
I'm in the matrix
I know that you want the truth
That's what we chasing
If you get to the bottom of it
I'm in the basement
Dear family
I know you tryna do the most
Dear friends
This the part of me I never show
Dear Stranger
Don't worry there's nobody that I told
I couldn't tell them anyways
Because I'm feeling so alone
F'real?
That's how you feel?
Man you ain't acting right
I'm feeling kinda tight
F'real?
Man that's how you feel?
Dawg you ain't acting right
I'm feeling kinda tight