Sidetracked - Lapse Lyrics

Well it's been four long months since I sat down to tell you all about how I felt
About myself, and everyone else but I've been so overwhelmed

Well it's been four long months since I sat down to tell you all about how I felt
About myself, and everyone else but I've been so overwhelmed
With living life for me no matter what who thinks
I've always tried to just be happy
And even though I'm all alone
I feel like I'm so close

But I'm still letting go, I'm still letting go of the past
They say it's just water under the bridge but the river lasts
And even though sometimes I feel I'm out on the coast
Somehow I still end up on my back
But I will keep on swimming 'till the world is in my grasp
With no looking back

It's been 11 months
I lost focus again
See I've been counting all my sheep while losing sleep
While somehow always sleeping in
I gotta get it together
Or risk losing all my friends
Because as hard as I try I can't get out of my mind how much I'd rather just stay in

So tell me, how do I get through this
I've always heard to put more feeling in my music
Well here it is
So sorry that I have to yell to convey the things I've said aloud
But maybe this will take me somewhere I haven't found
And maybe I'll finally be able to stare my demons down