Sierra Tay - After Thoughts Lyrics

I thought I was awake, but my eyes were still closed in a dream state
Perfect home, white picket fences
Thought I saw your face yesterday, jumped out of my skin into a new body, hoping you don't notice

I forget who I am, sometimes get too caught up in who I'm not
To pay attention
Never learned my lesson
I think about cutting my hair too often
It's the after thoughts
Something I just forgot

I still stare out my window, thinking that you'll pass in your brand new shiny car
Now I'm feeling far (out)
On this strange planet I've inhabited
So many bruises, so many scars, this life shit gets hard

Purple and blue are the colors of the flowers on my porch
You show up sometimes just to check if my hand still fits well in yours
Can't make small promises, but swear to this day that
All of the memories that burn my heart burn yours the same, maybe with more pain

The rain falls anyway
And flowers die out every day
But grow back just the same
Love was just a game
My afterthoughts to blame

And I'm drowning in your pain
And I love you all the same
Am I the only one to blame
No my
My after thoughts, after thoughts

And I'm drowning in your pain
And I love you all the same
Am I the only one to blame
No my
My after thoughts, after thoughts to blame

After thoughts, after thoughts
My after, my after