My passion died i can not lie, i been running on empty
I feel alone and paranoid like someones out to get me
I put my phone on silent mode so nobody can text me
Love being alone when i feel low, so nobody can stress me
I'm still tryna accept things, like those who dip out and left me
I guess those chapters in our life had to come to an ending
Act like i'm fine, but in my eyes you can see i'm pretending
A lonely soul nobody knows, how this feeling just wrecks me
I guess these, feelings i have tend to go un-notice
Guess i was born to be broken now my gift is being open
Spilling my all on every song, so nobody feels hopeless
Involuntary sacrifice, i guess i have been chosen
Under appreciated, my feelings aren't mediated
Yo now a days, i spend my days wondering where the day went
Cuz i been running for so long i forgot what i'm chasing
I had to re-route but still heading towards the destination
Was running up that hill tryna make a deal with god
Until i realized theres no need since he gave me it all
My visions a little blurry, hadda see thru the fog
Theres beauty in the ugly pain leaves beautiful scars
Tryna conquer myself my mind is a dangerous place
You only appreciate life when you see death in the face
You only appreciate love when you been drowned by the hate
You only appreciate god when the life ain't going your way, I
I don't wanna feel
Don't wanna feel
Don't wanna feel this way anymore
I got myself stuck in the same place
That I said I'd escape
That I said I'd escape
Said I
Yeah, I thought i would escape it
My heart is filled with hatred
I look back at my dreams and
Think to myself will i make it
My energy deflated
I'm either tired or anxious
Wish my life could so simple
But my mind complicates it
I think I, i think i
Need to speak to somebody else
Cuz all this self conversations i'm having it doesn't help
Same routine different day, its insane i just wanna yell
Go away disappear like a ghost i might as well
Broken wings, got me falling can't take flight
My mom called, she unaware that her son ain't right
I'm balling & not the money i mean i'm crying
I'm stalling, i'm stalling i know
Things won't feel right
Staring at the pistol on my side,
Taunted by the voices in my mind
Just wanna feel alive
Yeah, yeah
Just wanna feel alive
Just wanna feel
Just wanna feel alive
Ooo
Yeah
I just wanna feel
Awhhhh