Snowblind - Sightseeing Lyrics

I feel a double edge sword ripping right out of my chest
Something that you wanted so I gave a try again
It's ironic and honest
The thought of pushing you away
Comes from chasing and reaching the goals that I crave but
You leave again as I watch
I blame myself for my faults
Can't take from me what I want
Stare at my lips they say
That taste don't make hits
I don't want this
All I need is therapeutic
These songs they are listening
More than you could ever be
So I scratch myself to death I want it
Seek to find the few that have it
With all of this company
Do you find the worth in me
So I talk to myself, find the words and man up
Then history repeats itself I lose my stamina
I fall on my feet while I'm screaming at you
Now I'm yelling at myself for always screaming at you
Now I'm yelling at myself for always screaming that I hate myself
I'm picturing the perfect moment, then the picture goes to hell
The picture that I'm picturing now
Is me screaming this out loud
I can't sleep around I know
I won't be tied I go
I'm losing all my hope
So will you please let go again
Your soft spoken words of wisdom make me question this
Another breathless walk to the floor
Another sleepless night by the door
Soft spoken words of wisdom make me question this
Another breathless walk to the door
Another sleepless night by the door
I can't sleep around I know
I won't be tied I go
I'm losing all my hope
So will you please let go again
Why do you call my name then go
Always send me down this road
Can you help me leave this home
I am drowning
Bodies sinking screaming