Socha - I of No Use Lyrics

I always thought it would be a grand finale
But it was just a crying shame it was so raw
How do I go from tiny kisses in the morning, to standing alone and explaining it all
I wrote this song before same old cadence same old chords
But it was full, and sweet, and soft, and a mistake
But now I know, you didn't miss me
Didn't hold me in a thoughtful place this song has turned to grey
You are so cold, and I was useless
You had used all you could hold
I'm left painted many colors of you
Scrub them out, I'm black and blue
Now you're back again begging to make room for you
You didn't even value the space
How could you say, you can fix this be much better when you only want to try when I am turned away
I thought we were sturdy
You said we were a team and I was a light
And now I see it's not about me
Only when you're at stake do you risk a fight
F*ck your honesty
A excuse to not see all the hurt in me
You didn't give me a truth
You gave me an excuse to act out selfishly
You see I gave you it all, open arms open heart
Isn't that what's to love
What did you mean from the start
Because I wasted away, and now I have to move strong with all of this empty space
Just why was I wrong
Was I of no use to a god such as you
Was I of no use
Was I of no use
Was I of no use to a god such as you
Was I of no use
Was I of no use