Soleil - Aspiration? Lyrics

I'm tryna maintain my composure
But I'm falling outta line, too far from the mainstream
Keep on thinkin' it'll be alright
At least thats what they say in my dreams
People run from anything that they can't understand
But no matter the matter cant run from our minds

How many strokes in a letter, how many shots to feel better
Somebody be my ride, I can't go on like this inside
I've seen some horrible things in life I'm sorry I f*cked up and lied

Somethings have a ploy to toy with every emotion in a boy
There's no way to stop no way you can avoid
See in and out of free no glee for he
He knows the pursuit of a dream is nothing but a lie, a disguise to be patronized