sorrow scene - you say, stay Lyrics

We were supposed to be beautiful
Before I let you down
You said I didn't try, but I
Gave you all my heart
People pleaser lover I
Always put you first
Now it's time for me to learn how to
Play my own part
I hate considering me because if I did
I would actually accept some sort of happiness
And If I trusted me
I maybe might be
Free from all the reservations you booked for me

I throw me down and kick me around
Still, I don't walk away
It's hatred, guilt, and questioning
My sense of wanting to stay
And now I've thrown my love away

You say
Stay
But I've kept myself so far away
We sway
From place to place
And I feel myself wrap up in your embrace
So, maybe I stay
And we'll move someplace safe
Just so we remain your way

The summer breeze swept us up
Like a cold winter storm
Exchanged your love notes for my
Romanticized charm
Endless hours spent talking
Nonsense on the phone
We never had those conversations I wanted all along
I would go back months ago and choose to refine
Give you all of me, my guarded heart, and my precious time
You know if I trusted you
I could've seen
Your love as worthwhile enough to be with me

You say
Stay
But I've kept myself so far away
We sway
From place to place
And I feel myself wrap up in your embrace
So, maybe I stay
And we'll move someplace safe
Just so we remain

Why do you want me
When I can't give you
The answer you're begging me for
Don't you think that you deserve
Better than my uncertainty
Shield yourself from this war
Who are you to say that I
Didn't grieve us
I cradled your feelings so you
Wouldn't take it personally cause
Maybe I didn't care for you
And all I did was think of me
And hurting was the only way
To find out what you meant to me
But soon we'll be separate
And I'll no longer be desperate
So, I might as well end it at this
I'll miss your unconditional bliss