Speakeazy - Reason Lyrics

Wet as rainy nights, clearer than the day
Everything I did for you, going out my way
Makin' sure you were okay and everything's all right
My pillow wet as hell and I'm staying up all night
'Cause I'm fearful, thinking one day
Maybe two day, three day, Green Day
With my broken heart driving 'round the boulevard
Try to ease the pain 'cause I know it's hard
I'm thinking 'bout
These things I doubt
It seems the route
To take is not
The way I thought we'd end up at
I say aloud
You broke my heart
And things were dark
With no one there
I crawled upstairs
And felt the pain
And went insane
And racked my brain
For a reason
Just a reason, to love myself
And nothing's there
Nothing's there

You were my dreams
You were my everything
And now I'm feeling broke
Feel like I might choke
On all the words I said
Wish that I was dead
So I never would've hurt you
Put me in the dirt so I don't have to watch
Close my eyes so I don't have to see
Everything that we could be
And I think I'm sinking
Every time I blink and sleep I feel this pain
That I can't explain
I can't live like this
And feel like this
Die like this
And cry like this
And feel like shit
I'm a hypocrite
And I need a reason
Just one reason to love myself