Stephen Bard - The Void at the Edge of My Mind Lyrics

I was thinking about the world and how all of us boys and girls
Are just doing the best we can to follow somebody else's plan
Yet nobody really knows how the story really goes
Until it's tearing you to bits
You're scared out of your wits and you're ready to call it quits
I had to stop right there and then 'cause it was going dark again
I don't like the things I'm tending to find
In the void at the edge of my mind
I think I know I mean ah yes - It's an ocean of nothingness
I'm standing alone on the shore and it's shaking me to the core
I don't know who put it there
It's almost more than I can bear
'Cause no matter how I grow or how far or long I go
It always just seems to know
That I'm a prisoner of war and the want for something more
And the fear of gaining sight or going blind
In the void at the edge of my mind
Couldn't you give me a break?
I'm a good boy for heaven's sake
Couldn't you show me a clue as to how someone might break through?
I know I know I know - Life is so beautiful no matter what I say
But every night and day, something's in the way
I just want to be OK, OK?
I was thinking about the fact that you can't take nothing back
And no matter how you live and no matter how much you give
You're always living with a fear
It's the deal with being here
So I took a walk outside thinking it might be best
The sky was blue and wide, the sun setting in the west
My lungs electrified, the wind inside my chest
For a moment I was free of all the insecurity
And the yearning inside of me undefined in the void
I'm trying hard not to forget it hasn't fully got me yet
I'm just praying to God I don't get left behind
In the void at the edge of my mind