Hardmode Video (MV)

It's hard to say the girl I love is gone
The world doesn't deserve what she woulda sung
Got doctors in my brain diggin through my skull
& now it feels like all my beauty is gone
All I ever wanted was a hit song
Buy a house for my parents
But that might be all gone
Everyones gathered round cryin
Somethin went wrong
There's a tumor in my brain
But it's not as bad as when I lost love

It's like when God built me up he said
This life is gonna be too hard to live
Grew up poor, in the Bronx
With a mother who only needs more
Give her more, God
Said I would have a chance to get ahead
But I'd be hangin on by a thread
Fake friends, dark times, dead ends
God put my life on Hard Mode

God put my life on Hard Mode
God put my life on Hard Mode

When I was young they screwed me over for my last dimes
I ran some great successes into land mines
And grief is something no one wants to help ride
They saw how hard it really was and then they slide
Jumpin out of moving cars
Cut scars across my arm
I made it pretty far, but that's just not far enough
I can't breathe when I see singers singing on TV
That should be my baby
That's bout the time I'm drinkin, yea yea yea

It's like when God built me up he said
I'll give him strength for the life ahead
I'm okay, despite all of this pain
Or the hole in my brain
I'm still standing
Yeah, I always pray for a break
And I've almost been at heaven's gates
How much more can I take?
God put my life on Hard Mode

(My life on hard mode, my life on hard mode)

God put my life on Hard Mode

I will not die, but live
& proclaim what God did
I will not die, but live
& proclaim what God did

God put my life on Hard mode