Im sorry im not there for all the times you by yourself
Im sorry if my words dont come in ways that bring you help
I know that things are hard right now and the cards your being dealt are adding to it and overall things arent good with your mental health
Please just know im there for you, im just a call away
But i never check up on you and i see that as my mistake
You tell me its all fine when i know nothing is ok
And i still give in because of all the problems i cant face
And i know that its my fault
I dont think before i do
And in return i lose a friend
I think ive lost my mind again
Love just aint for me i guess i dont get what i give
I think that im the issue
Every time it ends with you
I think that im the issue
Its time to face the truth
I know that im the issue
(i know that im the issue)
Dear mom and dad,
I know its getting hard to listen
I repeat the same mistakes and then i always play the victim
And i know its hard to trust because i lie out of my selfishness
And im sorry im still trying, i just lack my common sense
I dont speak to you guys much but if i do i fail to show you love, respect, and the upmost gratitude
And mom i say you do too much but i fail when im on my own
And dad i think youre strong for not kicking me out your home
I need to face reality
Maturity is just hard for me
Think before i start to speak
Im not prepared for independency
Im a failure
Im a screw up
I have no pride within myself
I let other peoples problems affect my mental health
I wish i could be mature
I wish i could be me
I wish i could find the one but thats something no one could be
How about today ill start to change
Ill put a stop to all my complaints and look myself right up in the face
Tell myself just to grow up
Its not that hard to be yourself
Find some confidence while im at it
Find some peace while im at it
Come to think,
Im probably not as bad as some of my peers
Some people try to fit in and some yall might need to hear this
Face reality you cant walk through life with this fake you
Your only interests are trends
Thats why you peaking in high school
(lets tell the truth)
(you need face the truth)
(please just face the truth)
(i need to face the truth)