Sudds - Missed Call Lyrics

Hello...
Dad...

Wish you'd pick up the phone
Wish you cared about my day
Days
Weeks
Months pass
My feelings you bypass
Yet it's on me
I'm amazed
Dazed
Confused
Your my father yet
My artwork you minimized
My ideas demonetized
Id kill to see you wear my jersey
Even see me win my first derby
Never saw the grass bow underneath my cleat
Sad... Starting to think your a deadbeat
I wanted you to be the man I idolized
No time to give
No time to realize
All this kid wanted was for you to care
Late nights crying cause i was scared
(Where were you?)
All i had where my thoughts
(Only time time I cry...)
Wish you were there
(Is when... when you hurt me)
Wish you were there dad

I Hate these memories
Memories of you being frustrated
When i was soaking bathing in sexual sin
Understand my actions you hated
Change i illustrated
While you just contemplated
My past does not define me
(Let by-gones be by-gones)

Can you tell me you love me?
Do i make you happy?
(Why do you hate me so much?!)

Yet Im standing here at the alter
My words falter
Talking about family
I'm pass an apology
Tears in my eyes
My heart dies
(Where you at?)
Just thought you still show
(Where?!)
I thought i was part of the family
(Where you at?)
My heart sinks low
I know you had a lot on you plate
(I know your my dad but where you at?)
Parted ways is this our fate?
I just want my family to support the kid
Questions swell in my head
I dont know what i did...
(Why didn't you come?)
Like What I do!
(Why didn't you show?)
Lord, Why do I got to lose?
(I hate that you make me feel like this)

Dad I hope you get this missed call
I hope you hear my heart
All in all
Its just a start