Surf - Journals Lyrics

Im my mama favorite son
Everybody favorite one
Nana want me off them drugs
She want me to pray a bunch

My father told me that he love me
He don't really say it much
And my gang so f*cking solid
We ain't ever changing up

Imma die without this money f*ck it i aint saving nothing
Need that money coming to me daily i ain't chasing nothing
If they put me on that stand i promise i aint saying nothing
They gone treat me like a hero promise i ain't saving nothing

I had some people in my life i thought that i could trust
All i wanted was a bag i had to run it up
They said that i was switching up i never really did
He said he had some hitters on me go head send them in

Would i be wrong if i had went and got all my revenge
I stopped taking medication i was running out
All the voices in my head i just be smoking loud
All the things that they would say i really wrote it down

I got journals in my room i never opened up
I had stuff i couldn't keep i really tore it up
All the shit that we went through it really tore me up
I stopped thinking about that shit im really growing up

You waited till i got ahead and started showing up
When i saw you on the gram you was showing out
I think about you when i can i hope you know it now
I think I understood it better when you broke it down

Im my mama favorite son
Everybody favorite one
Nana want me off them drugs
She want me to pray a bunch

My father told me that he love me
He don't really say it much
And my gang so f*cking solid
We ain't ever changing up

He said that he was finna kill me i ain't dead yet
Man i don't fear nobody i ain't scared yet
Man i dont wanna talk send the bread yeah
Catch him at the drive thru and hit his headset