Suspended In Air - Hesitation Lyrics

You start a garden, but fail to watch it grow
'Cause watering got old
I started digging, to search for the unknown
But now I'm losing hope

One foot in the grave with a smile on my face
Still I tempt my fate
I wish I were in space, anywhere else but this place
I want to get away

You tried to end it then said you were alright
Well now I know you lied
I saw your figure so distant in the night
The darkness felt so bright

One foot in the grave with a smile on my face
Still I hesitate
I want to fade away to a new reality
I'd finally feel free

You said I know you better
I wish I had an answer