SwarmBeezy - Pain Lyrics

Trill talk I been faking
Least that's what it feels like
I been on since one one
Some reason don't feel right
They know Beezy but don't feel Dwight
But they don't want hear that tho
They just want me to turn up
Do a show and let the music blow
Still trying to drown the pain out
Sometimes I wanna pull them thangs
Tell me pray but I all I do is pray
I open wide and blow my brains out
Same team but not the same route
Hush hush keep it inside
If I speak out
It'll leak out
Let a peep out
They will de-val-ue
You who is you son
Raised off in the projects
Dopeman run the streets son
You a soldier or a convict
Either way you gon still lose
Take the L like the others did
At least the hat make you feel cool
Defend yourself they throw you in the pin
Boy I been trying to live right
Fall short like I'm BASE jumping
Wife gone for the second time can't pretend like I aint see it coming
Cold hearted I aint been honest
Doubted God with the soul of Thomas
Eyes on me like a superstar
But they aint knowing I was just a comet
Vomit merely from reflection
Recognize me no mo
Gotta walk it out like I talk it out cuz aint no love for the so so
Cooking in me slomo
Truth hurt like a four four
If I flirt with Keisha and I smile at Pam
Someone tell me what's the Total
Lusting still get the best of me
Pray my family don't think less of me
Nights cried like my soul died only God holding the remedy
Pass this cup with the sin in me
Hating these tendencies
Who is the enemy
Smile what they tend to be
Broken up mentally
Wish I was half of the man that I always pretend to be
Aint been the same since my son died in my arms bruh
Im a christian but I swear I think this is karma
I was a fool cause the sacrifice was my heart bruh
Look a little closer you'll see cracks off in this armor
Yeah
But I digress
Just use this beat to get all of these feelings off my chest
This a hard pill to swallow and hard to digest
If im gon be brand new then I guess
That my best
Is be D.O.F