Syke - South Lyrics

I know what you think
You watching me build up a boat and you cringe as you watching me sink
Refuse all the help so my pride doesn't shrink
Can't look at myself when i look over sinks
I know I should trail you
I know that I jailed you
I know I should hail you
I've broken a link
I know I upset you
Dunno what to tell you
I know that I failed you
I know what you think
Couple of years have gone by
Hope that my worth ain't the same when i die
Know that you want me to live out my life but a drop of regret make a ripple in time
Drops of regret make me rip out a line
Thinking way back should have read those signs
Looking way back on em sleepless nights
Thinking Suicide, damn, how you lost that fight
I know
Where'd he go wrong in his life
I know
I don't think I raised him right
I know
Could of gone far if he tried
I know
This another phase here right
I... no...
But why'd he even wanna write rhymes
If he just f*cking worked he'd a turned out fine
Whats looking through the glass if the man still blind
Its the pain of the past that he polish till shine
I've grown
Sorry you've heard me through word of the mouth
Sorry that i'd just say I'm going out
I know that it seems that i'm chasing the clout but it's deeper than that swear my heart spilling out
I kept it a secret cause i'm filled with doubt
I'm stuck in the deep end no means to get out
It's dragging me down cause I'm thinking out loud you don't f*ck with the route cause
Shit's gone south

Shit's gone

I used to dream
Now I'm just stuck in the ring with neglect with no plan to attack
I used to dream
Now I be walking away from myself with a hole in my back
I used to dream
Now i be drinking these bottles of numb but this probably my last
I used to dream
Now I just slip through the cracks in the crowd while my head in the past but see
I used to dream
Now all my nights are just black
Maybe ill never get back
I used to dream
Now i got ice in a pack
Hoping my head doesn't crack
I used to dream
Now I be running these laps
Hoping the crowd don't clap
I used to dream
Hope they don't praise me for meaningless raps cause I use to
Dream about all of these things
Dream of success that my friends have attained
Dream of degrees
Parents to please
Dream about all of the love I would gain
Dream about how id erase all the pain
Dreaming that all of my nights ain't the same
I would dream about ways i be breaking the chain of the sharpest of blades that be grazing her veins
Dreamt about love while I dreamt of content
Dreamt about feelings that only stay pent
Dreamt about family I represent
Dreamt about never having to repent
Dreamt about working my way to ascent
Dreamt about locking success in cement
I would dream about reading the letters I sent with a smile on my face
And no thoughts of regret but shit's gone South