Taira - I've Tried yet I'm Still Broken. Lyrics

I swear I tried everything
Cut the coffee for some tea
Cutting friends off who were mean
And I tried to get more sleep

But the roots are planted so deep
Do you think that you could love me
If I can't get happy

I tried everything A ton of different songs I sing
A compilating observation thought that I hold dear to me
A memory where something gold was meant to be
A parallel universe where I feel I'm finally mentally
Sane

But I'm just messed up in the brain
So instead I'll write words on words
Of nothing but my sufferings

A love letter depicting
How I've fallen for despair
How beautiful she is
Make me think no one cares

Cut the coffee for some tea
But it's been 18 hours
And probably 5 words that I've said

And you make me feel lovely
But I'm a different kind of hungry
And I can't get happy

Tired of feelin' nothing
Cuz I can never sense a thing
I took the meds I felt depressed
I want an end but nervously

I'll never get rid of the demon where my mind hid
They like to come out every night close my eyelids

I tired But they appear behind those too
Out of all the color of the rainbow I just feel so blue
Told an expert bout the captive thoughts I bring
But they just sing along never stop to read and think

I swear I tried everything cut the coffee for some tea
And it's been 18 hours and probably 5 words that I've said
And you make me feel lovely (yeah you did)
But I'm a different kind of hungry and I can't get happy

The bonds I used to float are something causes me to sink
The friends that I just dearly love they leave me up and left to bake
The roasting of their words it's like I finally made them laugh
But what's the point of giving if I feel so attacked

Self-love and desperation really seem the same
A detrimental effort to achieve something so great
Once I'm sure to gain it I'd lose it and not a second wait
Really like to see my downfall never wanna see me win yeah

If no one tells me I'm okay
But people seem to look right through me
These days

It's not that I don't want your pitty
I just want someone to hear me
And I can't get happy