Face to Face Video (MV)

I'm holding up a hand to show that I surrender
Cause no matter what I do I'm never getting better
I got ice inside my heart it's always like december
Freezing cold, I'm all alone, and barely can remember
What everything is like when I be lost inside
I can't write the lines, I don't know what heart is mine
Feeling paralyzed, losing hope, and losing minds
Pondering my life, and what I cannot see at night
They tell me life is like a foggy mirror
Cause no matter where we look it's never something clear
And we live the way we do because of what we hear
And everything we have to witness, everyday of every year
It be on my bucket list to try to be myself
So that I'm never gon be lonely on an empty shelf
Some of you don't understand the pain that I have felt
Or the loads of criticism that they've handed out
And I know in every song it's always talked about
I get repetitive describing what I bleed about
And it's due to all the trash that comes from peoples mouths
Cause they fail to read the map that shows my current route
And as I'm trudging on the journey of this life itself
I understand the pain and reasons of the cries for help
Cause when I see my own reflection, I don't see myself
I just see the pain, working hard to surface out
And everytime I'm lost, we see face to face
Just my reflection and me working to keep up the pace
Barely living, it's the cost, to drain the pain away
And as the shadow fades, my face it don't remain the same
And everytime I'm lost, we see face to face
Just my reflection and me working to keep up the pace
Barely living, it's the cost, to drain the pain away
And as the shadow fades, my face it don't remain the same
I get reminded of the moments that were painful times
Whenever clocks are moving slow and everything rewinds
I see the memories that never seem to leave my side
It's nostalgic but the pain it starts to intertwine
And the viruses are silent up inside my mind
Until i open up a door that hurts me everytime
And no matter what I do, I just keep paying fines
Going broke but not in money just in wasted time
Yeah I saw my happiness took it for granted
Cause nowadays I feel alone like i have been abandoned
Cause I turned my back on God and now the devils planted
In my head and I don't know where I should look for answers
It's like the people in my life walked and now I'm stranded
It's like i jumped a couple feet and I just barely landed
And when I'm staring at my palms, it's like i'm empty handed
It's funny brokenness was never in the propaganda
And everytime I'm lost, we see face to face
Just my reflection and me working to keep up the pace
Barely living, it's the cost, to drain the pain away
And as the shadow fades, my face it don't remain the same
And everytime I'm lost, we see face to face
Just my reflection and me working to keep up the pace
Barely living, it's the cost, to drain the pain away
And as the shadow fades, my face it don't remain the same
I wear a different face than what some people think
But I ain't fake just when I write I never feel complete
Sometimes, I feel that I have become a different human being
Cause my mind it wanders far into the galaxys
And yeah I'm kind of scared for what the future holds
All I know is that the testing ain't gon bring me home
Man I just need to find myself before I go
But I ain't wasting time so i'll keep pushing forward
But every time, that I'm lost, I be lost yeah
And everytime I'm lost, we see face to face
Just my reflection and me working to keep up the pace
Barely living, it's the cost, to drain the pain away
And as the shadow fades, my face it don't remain the same