This Kid - The Cross Lyrics

I approached my closet as the fear gripped my heart
The night accompanied me as an unholy guard
The clothes hung from hangers as I pushed them aside
And I fastened a cross for someone just about my size
A demon awaited me but I tried to avoid his eyes
I tried to avoid the thought of what he said might be lies
My heart hungered for answers I knew I wouldn't get here
My brain was screaming as my hands shook with fear
Holding on for dear death my heart stopped to watch and wait
And the demon and unholy night had decided my fate
Would my death be worth dying asked a still small voice
Would my life find its purpose do I still have a choice
My cross hung in my closet and my heart rose from my feet
The fear of my downfall still hangs and won't leave
I still ponder of the demon as the night takes his watch
The demon still loathes the night that he lost

I'm trying not to end my life tonight
I'm trying not to break down at your side
I'm hoping that tonight I'll be alright
'Cuz tonight oh tonight

To whoever hears these words I'm praying
I don't wanna die
I'm trying not to end
My life
Tonight