Thomas Austin - Is Forever Even Long Lyrics

Yeah
Know I want this here forever man
Last night I made my mind up
Today Ima go for it
Probably leaving at the crack of dawn in case you were keeping track
And I'm leaving with no plan B
So just pray I make it back
I done put up every dime with hopes that I would make it back
Even tapped into the savings a few times when I should've stacked
Suitcase feel like my home
I'm on the road
I'm always packed
I'll never understand
Somehow I find more peace in that
Still trying to piece together strength to tell em that I'm done
Can't be out here in the streets getting distracted when you the one
Somebody taught me how to talk
How to crawl
How to run
How to read
Shoot a jumper
Catch a ball
Throw the ones
How to count
How to plan
How to buy
How to loan
But nobody taught me how to change the world through a song
And I'm out here on this path
You understand why I feel alone
I just want this here forever
But is forever even long
Is forever even long
Way too scared to blink my eyes
It might be gone in a night
I done did a lot of wrongs and still made it to this point
But that don't make it feel right
I can say it in a song but I mean this from the heart
I just want this for life
I swear I want this for life
I remember ten plays was in my wildest imagination
Happy they tuning in
It didn't matter which song they playing
In those days I was just grateful to be heard
But seems nowadays my only concern is what I earn
External factors strip the joy from the game
And people scared to wear my cleats
They blame it on a sprain
They planted on the sideline
I grew up cause the rain
Who's in charge of average being rewarded with the fame
Only I'm to blame if I let this work go in vain
Only I'm to shame
The wins and losses in my name
I'm living in my purpose
But my address still the same
Only time they call when they know that it's something to gain
I feel the lows when I'm high
The toll that's it's taking on my soul to reply
Entitlement I'm feeling
Blame it solely on my pride
And even if I really was owed all this time
I wasn't owed all this time
Is forever even long
Way too scared to blink my eyes
It might be gone in a night
I done did a lot of wrongs and still made it to this point
But that don't make it feel right
I can say it in a song but I mean this from the heart
I just want this for life
I swear I want this for life
The internal clock is making sounds in my head
Age is weighing now more than ever
People I had written in my story that I would bless when I made it
Are no longer here to piece the plot together
I'm ripping out pages
I'm writing new chapters
It's touching all ages
I'm like a true pastor
I put truth on the shelves
But lies move the sales faster
Introduced em to my goals
But it was met with their laughter
But I ain't get the joke
Mind roaming like the pope
They catching wind of the boy
I just know I'm bout to blow
Word spreading coast to coast
Back at home everybody toting poles like a vote
I was always in my bag
So I ain't never had to tote
Tongue sharper than a blade
Every verse cut throat
They would bet on me the least
Now respect is utmost
It was always in the plan to use my voice to give hope
And if time say the same
I'll live forever through these quotes
Is forever even long
Way too scared to blink my eyes
It might be gone in a night
I done did a lot of wrongs and still made it to this point
But that don't make it feel right
I can say it in a song but I mean this from the heart
I just want this for life
I swear I want this for life