Lately I've been feeling more and more depressed
Look at my phone to distract me from nothingness
My life on the screen don't compare to theirs
But in the end I'm the only one who f*cking cares
That's why I'm hating on everything and everyone
That's why I'm blind to the angry person I've become
I just want to remember what it's like to feel
I just want to go back before these drugs and pills
Now I'm locked inside I ain't seen sun in weeks
Got Nothing, Nowhere playing on repeat
Shouts to the ones that still hold me down
Wouldn't be here without you
I don't know what to say
So I won't say anything
The silence is deafening
But so what...
And all I ever wanted was someone to share it with
But I guess that's just life so here we go
For the first time in a month I took a step outside
Almost tripped down the stares sun hit me dead in the eyes
Thought I was blind but then suddenly I felt more alive
Than I had since I was 15 without even trying
And all this time I'd given up settled cold in the dark
Like my skin wasn't thick enough for my cold little heart
Never thought shit could change. Learn just to be who you are
I'm saying f*ck that shit go be a f*cking rock star
I don't know what to say
So I won't say anything
The silence is deafening
But so what...
And all I ever wanted was someone to share it with
But I guess that's just life so here we go