find the body Video (MV)

Diagnose me all the same
I don't have weights in my pockets
It's just my legs
And some days I think I've lost it
And other days, I feel just okay

I do it under the guise of self improvement
Like I'm moving in a better direction than I was before
Cuz these days going backwards feels better than not moving at all

I'll tell you that I'm tired of myself
I'm tired of this feeling
That I'm always f*cking feeling
Cuz I just can't let it go

Every time I'm in the deep end
I let the water in my lungs
Drown me from the inside out
Cuz I won't let it leave me

'til I'm f*cked up in the head
I'll wake up somewhere else instead
Of being in your way
Book a hotel, stay for a week
Before they find the body
I hope you all forget about me

And they'll say she was such a lovely girl
I never would've guessed that she was hurting, throwing up and cursing the world
And they say she was such a pretty girl
I never would've guessed she wanted surgery
On her face and on her body as well

But I told you I was tired of myself
Tired of the feeling
That I was always f*cking feeling
Cuz I just wouldn't let it go
And when I was in the deep end
I let the water in my lungs
Drown me from the inside out
Cuz I wouldn't let it leave me

'til I was f*cked up in the head
I woke up somewhere else instead of being in your way
Booked a hotel, stayed for a week before they found my body
I guess you all forgot about me