I do this for my family
Obsessed with success until I slip into insanity
I say I'm gonna do it, so I follow through
Swim inside a dead sea long enough, it swallows you... it's true
And I'm trying to be that dude still
Traveling uncharted, trespassing where the truth builds
I was in a bath tub with a salt shaker
The next thing I know, I'm holding on to melting glaciers
Now, water world with a widespread ice patch
Poking through the plastic on a momentary life raft
Waiting for the flood to float me up until I'm flying
Maybe I'll be sinking... Either way, I'm dying... it's cool ya'll
It's all good, man I promise
That's why I'm working over time to get something accomplished
I contemplate quitting every time I get it started
Stumble over doubt until you learn to disregard it... for real
And I'll be doing this forever...
Cause every day, I dedicate to being better... it's better
I'll be doing this forever
Until I'm better
And that's just how it is
You're only gonna get what you can give
This is every single thing that I've ever thought about
Taking place in a personified fire til I'm out
And if it's running out, let the smoke fill the room
This is dedicated to my friends leaving us too soon
It's f*cked up, but honestly, I think about it daily
I still recall the moment that I noticed you were changing
Fading in and out of conciousness, I could see your eyes roll back
Trapped in a hospital, where the lines go flat
Flashing the image right in front of me
Ever since I saw it, I have not been sitting comfortably
Comforting a mother that I knew would not recover
The father and the bottle start re-speaking to each other
Chasing any chance of a change to occur
Into an oblivion that fades to a blur
And that's the type of pain that nobody can explain
And that's the type of pain that nobody can explain
And that's the type of pain that nobody can explain
Because every time we talk, I know everything has changed
I can't imagine everything that's running through your mind
It's racing in a circle, trying to leave it all behind
It's gonna be alright, really that's all I can say
I'm not sure if I mean it, but I wish it every day
It's gonna be OK
And that's just how it is
You're only gonna get what you can give
This is every single thing that I ever thought about
Taking a place in a personified fire til it's out
You take the light away from me, I promise that I'll shine
I'm not sure what it is, but it's embedded in my mind
Making something out of nothing, nothing isn't really anything
If everything you do is what you are then start envisioning
I'm visiting epiphanies that sit between the sky
And everything above it that we cannot see with eyes
I look up and imagine magic manifesting peace
Listen close enough and you can hear it when it speaks
And this is what I am, this is everything I need
Until my body fails me, and then my soul is free
And if it doesn't fly, then I hope to God it floats
So I can finally rise and become more than a ghost
And this is what I am, this is everything I need
Until my body fails me, and then my soul is free
And If it doesn't fly, then I hope to God it floats
So I can finally rise and become more than a ghost
I'm gettin close, yall... I'm gettin close