Yeah my girl is death
Hope you figured out
Why I want her and not the bitches feinin clout
Can you really blame a nigga
She lookin kinda good
I'll find peace with her before it's ever hood
This is just a tale
Of a time I tried to die
We let history repeat release this mind
Your take away from this
Shouldn't be I'm suicidal
And no I don't belong in an insane asylum
I was cryin out for help
For months I f*ckin yelled
But no one ever checked on how I felt
If you got a friend son daughter
A person That you love
Be dramatic f*ckin write it in the sky above
But when it comes to me
Don't text dm or call
Because I fell in love with death but that ho loves us all
Lemme say the worst I'll go from the top
It started in the psychiatrist parking lot
Finally got the script
Told him I was safe
Nigga didn't really care how I was felt that day
Go to get my pills
Stop to grab a slice
I was f*cking elated to end my life
Time to crack the bottle and lock my room
I'm finna make this little hell shack my tomb
Take another shot n cut my wrist
I'm so far gone you playin drake in the whip
They always ask why you wanna die
Cuz I'll turn to dust ain't no nigga in the sky
You know I don't believe in god
If he real that nigga mean
Rape murder torture wit a benevolent king?
You could say I'm really over this mundane life
But wild shit be happening left n right
Roll up on my girl
Teased her for a while
Only fit the tip when she open wide
She said baby please I'll give you a release
Said She'll snatch my soul from her f*ckin knees
Then shawty took my soul into the abyss
All started when I put the f*ckin drink to my lips
Lets keep the story goin
Took 90 sum pills
I was tryin to stop my heart that permanent Ill
Then skip a couple days
There isn't much to say
Seizing uncontrollably in a coma I lay
Eyes open in a panic
I swear I knew I died
But Here i am only able to move my eyes
The pain was so intense
Most of it was mental
Can't believe my attempt was unsuccessful
Take out the tube
Let the lecture begin
Call me shitty selfish a bad friend
Claim that they was worried
Say that they had cried
Say they weren't tryin to see me die
But I had wrote a song
Sang it nice and Loud
To get attention from anyone around
Guess it didn't work
It was a cry for help
That's why I OD so I could escape hell