trstn. - i'm sorry Lyrics

Look, a year later and you're still on my mind
I wrote a song about you, wonder if you gave it your time
Probably not, and girl it hurts, poured out my heart in those lines
Just wish you'd call and tell me lately you've been feelin' my rhymes, damn
I swear the minute I wake up, you're all up in my head
It takes me thirty f*ckin' minutes just to leave my bed
I know I hurt you with the things I did and things I said
Whenever I think about it, I wish that I was dead
Girl, all I wanted for us was just not to f*ckin' fight
Yeah, all I wanted was for things to f*ckin' be alright
We'd argue 'bout the same shit, yeah every f*ckin' night
Then wake up the next day and act like we're all f*ckin' right
September 5th, 2018, the day your love for me died
Yeah, when I sent you that message, I knew it broke you inside
Sat in my room, girl, I was shaking waiting for your reply
And when it finally f*ckin' came, I just broke down and cried
I'm sorry, I hope you know
I never meant to leave you alone
I miss you, just call my phone
'Cause I don't wanna be on my own
F*ck, this rap is really hard to write, girl I can't even lie
It's taking everything inside me not to sit here and cry
I would give anything to tell my friends that I'm doin' fine
And truly mean it, but I'm not, I f*ckin' wish you were mine
See, all I need is one more chance, I swear I won't waste your time
Yeah, I can show you that I've changed, it's pretty clear from these lines
Girl, I still love you, I'm so sorry that whole time I was blind
But all it took was one mistake for you to leave me behind
I'm sorry, I hope you know
I never meant to leave you alone
I miss you, just call my phone
'Cause I don't wanna be on my own
It's like
She was the only person that I actually loved
And that I felt a connection with
And now that she's not in my life anymore
I feel lost