Turkish Executioner - I TRIED (feat. Kota Carbone) Lyrics

I tried so hard yet to be disappointed why is
It so hard to get what you want in life feels
Like the only answer is a knife to the heart
Then you can put me up on the shelf for life
Maybe then I won't be burdened with trying to look
Some sort of way maybe then I won't have
To fit certain requirements trying so much I
Need treatment reliant on these damn pills
What I go through day to day most wouldn't
Understand the only real help you can get
Is from within
I'm trying
I'm trying
I try so hard
But but to be let down
All this effort
Let astray by all these teaching and preaching
Now I don't know if I wanna believe in what my
Heart tells me or what others say somedays
I tell my self I'm the main man I do what I want
Screw what I've been told tought to not fold
Yes I'm very bold in what I say but that shit
Came back to bite me eightfolds I have a good
Foothold in life still don't know why I'm feeling
Like this still don't know why it feels like trying
This hard just putting off the image that I'm
A fool and that my heart is cold feeling
Uncontrolled at the age of 17 it's like I'm
The head of my household going to the extent
When I should be having a good time like the
Others
I've tried I've tried I've tried I've tried I've tried i tried so hard
I've Tried and I got so far
When it comes to what I've done the list goes on for so long
I don't know how to do it but for right now ima say so long
Do my thing and keep going cuz if I slow then god damn
I've doomed the future I've had
Yet to grasp for mine
I don't see why I lie
To the people I hold close
There's a vibe inside that's got me ready to go ghost
I try to change but I gotta be real
Ima be me no matter the chatter that you spill
Do my thing yes I'm in a field
Trynna lookout in the distance
Gotta go get it there's a glimpse of that
I get so hype got to relax
Cuz if I don't
I will snap on those I love
I don't get it
So much effort
Has been put into the game
But ended up worthless
But man whatever
I'm just tryna lift it up
Trynna lift it up
Yes I see that that I can't give up
Cuz if I do then what the fuhh
I don't like to be that way but sometimes that's how it is
I've put in so much effort in but all I can say is
I've tried I've tried I've tried I've tried I've tried i tried so hard
I've Tried and I got so far
Now we got
People talking bout we don't fight I tell
Them well good night then turned my
Headlights on get out my sight seems
Nowadays nobody rolls the old way straight
To the guns definition of pussy it's like
Either let it go or take action but I don't know
What to do anymore my mind is like a dark
Cloud everything comes in loud and clear
It takes a lot to turn my back on the hate
I said I'm trying I'm trying
Why don't you understand
Just give me a chance
To prove I'm worth
I can show you the real meaning of loyalty
Don't confuse me with others you can run
Me over with a car take my heart out and step
On that shit tear me down and I'll build my self
Back up rest of them will just cheat or leave
Without a notice that's who you called your
Ride or die
I've tried I've tried I've tried I've tried I've tried