Turkish Executioner - MY PAIN Lyrics

Fake friends telling me they rockin' I don't
Know if I'm sinking in the deepend got it
From the steep end
I lost my brother the pain I feel is out
Of this world served a life time of struggles
The good deeds I've done for people turned
That shit around and hit me in the back
I was stacking some money for my craft
Till some clown robbed me I was just getting
Ready to unpack but now I just gotta
Keep a pack on me I refuse to be
Thrown into a pot with these other rappers
I been the leader of my pack simulise
How I feel so you understand who I
Really am been providing since I was 16
Working 9-5 jobs thinking of a way
To get rich overnight deep down I
Know it won't happen I'm just a kid with
Big dreams my efforts seem pointless
I know I have a bright future
But why is it feeling so dark so many
Questions who's willing to answer them
I'm just going insane when will
This feeling end when will I truly be
At piece in my mind
Acting like my feelings are bullet proof
As a kid i hoped they would stick
Around till the end only time will
Tell if I'll be the best or it can be on
The low in secret I'm not trynna be friends
No more yea I'm 18 now I've came a long
Way
Funny how everybody thinks they know me
Just trying to make it out I'm just
Trynna get over the past I couldn't make
It last any longer now I feel it in my bones
Heart racing looking for a second chance
I try to reframe my past there making it
Harder by the day bringing up my mistakes
From the past living in this fast life everyday
I wake up with a chip in my heart always
Feeling down feeling no pain I push my
Loved ones away it seems to get complicated
With each breathe that I draw yea with
Each breathe that I draw
Fake friends telling me they rockin' I don't
Know if I'm sinking in the deepend got it
From the steep end