Twizsoul - Asking for Help Lyrics

Is it so wrong just wanting to end it all
Imaging my brains splattered on the wall
You say you care but wheres the phone call
When I got a 45 under my chin bout to end it all
Where the f*ck was you when I had a rope around my neck
Wishing and wanting you there to make sure I stay in check
If you called now I'd probably tell you to give me a sec
You'd hear a gunshot someone scream blood all over the deck
I swear I'm the only mother f*cker getting these type a thoughts
No light in the tunnel if theirs a f*cken mountain to get across
Would you notice the shit in my head if our paths crossed
Probably not cause theirs no path outta here I'm lost
If I did public suicide they are shouting what's taking so long
This is who I am now when I start writing on a song
In a room full of people but I don't feel like I belong
Even here no one will come and ask what's wrong

If you cry
Just know I dream of you
In death, we dream
If you die
Just know I dream of you
In life, we dream

I remember waking to you
Hand and hand we flew
It was something we both knew
Beautiful night to be blue
You were pulling me up
But then I woke up
Looks like it was just another dream
Now my mind breaking at the seams
Hate me I still watch you behind the scenes
Started realizing nothing is as it seems
I know it was a dream but I can't forget it
Theirs to much shit I can't ever admit
Low points with music I almost quit it
All it takes is a simple slit to commit
I got a knife that may seem regular
All I gotta do is take it up to the jugular
All that will be left is red to color
Maybe in another life, I will be the other
At first, I only wanted to take care of her
Coming back to reality I don't love her
It's just a chemical making me a sufferer
All that's at the end is us killing one another
I gotta make a choice between fact or fiction
If I choose fiction it ends with a crucifixion
In here theirs never a contradiction
You say you hear but do you ever listen

If you cry
Just know I dream of you
In death, we dream
If you die
Just know I dream of you
In life, we dream

It always has to end this way
Just know I never wanted to go away
And despite what they might say
Death was on my mind since the first day
So there's no reason to go and hate
Just for something you can't relate
They always tell you it's not too late
What does that mean your minds outta fate
When you a day away from it they send a letter
They just wanna make themselves feel better
It's f*cken annoying I wish I could forget her
Till the day I die, I regret the day I met her
Look how long this shit took
Just to write this off to the hook
I know it got some shook
But now theirs blood on the book
MWI is all you ever looked at
One song you think you understood that
No one ever thinks twice about that
You've been dying since your first-day life and that's a fact
So im sending you off with a goodbye
Until then I wait to just f*cken die
You almost ready to look me in the eye
After this, you gonna wanna f*cken cry
So just die

If you cry
Just know I dream of you
In death, we dream
If you die
Just know I dream of you
In life, we dream