After all this time
I shouldn't feel my heartbeat race when I see her picture
And when I see her smile
I can't help imagining the reality where I am still with her
Without a proper why, moving on can be so hard
And getting anything new past the start can be a hopeless endeavor
And god knows that I've tried establishing relations that are new
But I can never see them through and I know it's because of you
And after all this time
You shouldn't visit me in my dreams like you do
I cut you from my life
But you keep clawing your way back to the recesses of my mind
Without a proper why, moving on can be so hard
And getting anything new past the start can be a hopeless endeavor
And god knows that I've tried establishing relations that are new
But I can never see them through and I know it's because of you
Though I'm genuinely happy for you bae
The lack of clarity on why you left me back still holds me back
And I take full responsibility for creating a rocky start
But the pieces don't fit down the road
And I've convinced myself that lies were what I was told
Without a proper why, moving on can be so hard
And getting anything new past the start can be a hopeless endeavor
And god knows that I've tried establishing relations that are new
But I can never see them through and I know it's because of you