$UICIDEBOY$ - Not Even Ghosts Are This Empty Lyrics

I'll tell you a secret
Something they don't teach you in your temple
The Gods envy us
They envy us because we're mortal
'Cause any moment might be our last
Everything's more beautiful, because we're doomed
(You did good, $lick)
(It's a SMASH)

Can I ever get a moment to myself?
Each moment that passes is fleeting
I try and I try to escape my own life
At this point y'all should call me Houdini (aw, he gone)
It always ends up with me bleeding
I'm so overwhelmed I'm retreating
Back into the hole that I tried to climb out of
It always ends up self defeating
I'm addicted to sex, addicted to drugs
Really whatever will make me feel loved
I don't care what you think, yeah, I dont give a f*ck
I'm still out here shining as bright as the sun
And no matter how hard it gets, no matter how tough
Don't disobey when I say, "Gimme the gun" (gimme the gun)
If I don't let my demons out to breathe
I'll end up with some horns or pair of f*cking wings
Come and visit me from time to time (from time to time)
To all the bitches that I was ever with, yeah, you're still on my mind

Huh, huh (ayy)
Yeah, pushing that coupe in the rain (north)
Think I been going insane (side)
Popping and smoking and drinking (north)
Is how I been coping and dealing with pain (side)
Snort up a line with my Mom, yeah (north)
I just be hoping to bond (side)
Another day working and wasting away (north)
The exact thing that I wanna buy (side)
That's time
Yeah, I'm in that Double R, falling the f*ck apart
Cooking up my frontal lobe
Play it strong on the phone but I cry when alone
'Cause my daddy just hit a new low, f*ck
Every day bad news, every day cash rules
F*ck what I did, it's what have you done lately (let's go)
F*ck that poetic shit, got a chrome metal stick up to my brain (let's go)
Just to know heaven for a bit (go, go, go)
Yeah, uh, I just wanna run away (away)
But all I ever do is run in place (in place)
The tears I cried it could've iced my chain (my chain)
And on the best days I can't feel my face (my face)

No matter how hard it gets (my face, my face)
No matter how tough (I can't feel my face)
(My face, my face)
(I can't feel my face)
No matter how hard it gets (my face, my face)
No matter how tough (I can't feel my face)
(My face, my face)
(I can't feel my face)
(My face, my face)
(I can't feel my face)
No matter how hard it gets (my face, my face)
No matter how tough (I can't feel my face)
(My face, my face)
(I can't feel my face)

The worst part about hell is not the flames, it's the hopelessness
And I think that is the part of hell that a person in depression really tastes
(The hopelessness) the hopelessness, the terrible hopelessness that comes over