Depressed and angry cause I woke up knowing that you couldn't
Man we all told you to slow down
And just listen
But you f*cking wouldn't
Always f*cking around way too damn much
Of course knowing that you shouldn't
But you ain't know how much you meant to me
My brother you were family
Always bumping heads
Remember going body in the bathrooms
Checking in with your PO
Then heading off to those classrooms
Taking sips of liquor from mom's cabinet
Oh we thought we were so cool
Talking about painting all city
Cause we were tired of tagging local
Then you went and you got you some new friends
And man I had just felt abandoned
We went from Brothers to enemies
Like what the f*ck had just happened
And you got stabbed the same time as Yopl8
My brother you could've died then
But I was too busy on my bullshit
To be there
For my damn friend
All my life I've seen horror
I swear it's a movie
Nobody takes blame
For everything they've done to me
With all this cocaine
I'm still missing you daily
But all of this pain
It just happens to drain me
I'm living to die
But my life's not amazing
All my life I've seen horror
I swear it's a movie
Nobody takes blame
For everything they've done to me
With all this cocaine
I'm still missing you daily
But all of this pain
It just happens to drain me
I'm living to die
But my life's not amazing
We were young
And I was dumb
And yeah just a lil hard headed
Remember I was the one who took you to Yopl8's Viewing
Just know that I'll never forget it
You tried apologizing
I wouldn't listen
Just know I'll always regret it
And on my mama you my brother
And when I said it, I meant it
Now that goes for Leo
Goes for Pedro
And all of my brothers in heaven
I live my life
Cause when you were alive
You know you enjoyed every second
Man f*ck it
You know it's EI what we repping
You know we never half stepping
Making more than we spending
With exclusive invites
Cause you can't just come around in our section
Where drug deals go down every second
Pushing pills yeah you guessed it
Left to make something from nothing
With just our $150 investments
Man I've been out here Finessin
I started taking iPhones
And ended up selling them pressies
All of y'all could f*ck up out my face
I ain't doing no 5 for no 20
All my life I've seen horror
I swear it's a movie
Nobody takes blame
For everything they've done to me
With all this cocaine
I'm still missing you daily
But all of this pain
It just happens to drain me
I'm living to die
But my life's not amazing
All my life I've seen horror
I swear it's a movie
Nobody takes blame
For everything they've done to me
With all this cocaine
I'm still missing you daily
But all of this pain
It just happens to drain me
I'm living to die
But my life's not amazing
Remember we were smoking weed
Sipping lean
Popping pills and shit
Growing up way too fast
In a world that ain't give 2 shits if you a kid
But we wasn't trippin'
Never that
Cause this the life that we chose
Remember playing Xbox
Boxing
Talking shit at Lucho's
Now here we are
The homies car
Riding around with stolen scripts
Finessing the pharmacist at pharmacies
For whatever the f*ck that we could get
Smoking weed inside the trunk
Cause I ain't wanna be alone that day
Convinced myself it was the same time last year
That we lost Yopl8
Dine and dashed at Denny's
I'm just surprised that we even got away
More surprised the homies left before us
Without a single word to say
But we continued on our day
Yet unaware of what awaits
You paid your debts before your death
Always making sure that we were straight
All my life I've seen horror
I swear it's a movie
Nobody takes blame
For everything they've done to me
With all this cocaine
I'm still missing you daily
But all of this pain
It just happens to drain me
I'm living to die
But my life's not amazing
All my life I've seen horror
I swear it's a movie
Nobody takes blame
For everything they've done to me
With all this cocaine
I'm still missing you daily
But all of this pain
It just happens to drain me
I'm living to die
But my life's not amazing
Depressed and angry
Cause I woke up seeing that you wouldn't
Your mama told me to give you CPR that night
But I just couldn't
But I did
Just 10 minutes later
And then 15 more minutes through it
All I could do was look at your mama
And think about how much this is bullshit
You see it was only 1am
When I first had to save me my best friend
But you know
One hour later is when
You unfortunately met your grave end
It always seems like you were still around
Even though you were just taken
They say only God has the answers
But we never had that conversation
Left with just my observations
The sudden death of Gods creation
It became more blatant this wasn't the work of God
But the work of Satan
The doctors tried to lie
Tryna say that there was complications
But how the f*ck 3 days go by
Without my homie getting no refrigeration
You see
No money compensation
Will ever make up for your aspirations
He lost now
He gone now
"Oh God how" we feel forsaken
We were both there that night off the pills
So why the f*ck wasn't I taken
All my life I've seen horror
I swear it's a movie
Nobody takes blame
For everything they've done to me
With all this cocaine
I'm still missing you daily
But all of this pain
It just happens to drain me
I'm living to die
But my life's not amazing
All my life I've seen horror
I swear it's a movie
Nobody takes blame
For everything they've done to me
With all this cocaine
I'm still missing you daily
But all of this pain
It just happens to drain me
I'm living to die
But my life's not amazing