Ay, you see me from a distance
Try to ask why I'm so distant
I'm conflicted
I'm convinced that
I'm committed
I still missed it
I relive it
I'm the villain
Lie and twist it
Tryna make it seem like I'm the victim
But I know I'm not
Had good intentions but that don't change a lot
If I took control, I would make it through, I thought
But I've been going backwards and it needs to stop
Yeah, I need You, God
I inflicted pain on others in my race for clout
I constricted all my brothers as I tried to face my doubt
Didn't trace the route
Didn't make it out
Was so sick of the storm that I didn't brace for drought
That came with chasing after affirmation (brrt)
You can't alter ultimatum
I was running through my life like I was Walter Payton
"Man of the Year," hold up, halt I'm faking
I was beefing with my flesh, dang, I tried to walk with Satan
You need confirmation?
Ay, you see me from a distance
Try to ask why I'm so distant
I'm conflicted
I'm convinced that
I'm committed
I still missed it
I relive it
I'm the villain
Lie and twist it
Tryna make it seem like I'm the victim
I predicted I would fix it but I missed the mark (missed the mark)
My little sisters acting different since I fell apart (fell apart)
Maybe that's how I perceive things through a broken heart (through a broken heart)
Finding things to blame so I don't have to play my part in fixing me (brrt)
It's crippling to know that I'm not living free
Got sin in me, not rid of sin
Hot minute since I went and thought of giving thanks
My God, He brought the living waves
And yet I take advantage of Him, but wait (huh)
He's still giving grace (huh, yeah)
Midnight FaceTime calls
Tryna break out walls
I built around myself to protect me from my faults
But I trapped them here with me
Listening to Trip Lee
Abba, I need a taste of that sweet victory
Ay, you see me from a distance (yeah, you see me from a)
Try to ask why I'm so distant
I'm conflicted
I'm convinced that
I'm committed
I still missed it
I relive it
I'm the villain
Uh, look, wait (hold up)
Ay, you see me from a distance (why you see me from a)
Try to ask why I'm so distant
I'm conflicted
I'm convinced that
I'm committed
I still missed it
I relive it
I'm the villain
Not a victim (ay)