V.I - Bacardi Blues Lyrics

Composed this stuck between a couple walls
A rock and a hard place is what I think they're called
Every time we talk, reactions don't change but they listen
Swear these Bacardi blues hit a little different

Can I, vent
Can I, vent
Can I

Question, how you maintain
The same brain when things shiftin'
All the same stains, to campaign the game's different
I could blame shame that ain't change, the flames written
Same, strange vision, only the sane's slippin

This vain wisdom, my bane's lifted (and when the)
Pain's kickin', my lane's shiftin (I can't be)
Tame with it, or aim timid (unless I)
Feign ignorance, they can't listen

I ain't get it, almost changed missions
But if I, capitulate then that ain't livin
Don't aim to stroke egos so it ain't, givin
Done killed myself enough tryna sustain wishes

Compromise at every corner, except those givin' me peace
This is well, suited anxiety with nary a crease
Acceptance I been receiving tends to be on a lease
All these wolves in sheep's clothing I grew weary with ease

Being told how I'm destined to grow
But my value only comes from when I don't say no
Bending backwards at every turn, just represses the fold
Am I only meant for warmth when everything goes cold

Knowledge, often acknowledged as a compliment
When it conflicts with bad decisions l, quickly off of it
It I don't co-sign, I'm clotheslined from phone lines
In no time, I'm toeing cooking bovine

The talents I contain, adoration and praise
Focus on the aforementioned and how quickly it fades
So accustomed that I'm numb to the contempt in their gaze
Navigating pitfalls, pitch black in this maze

Left to wonder how I'll ever be content
When all the things that make me me, I'm always to lament
The vacancy in my agency, is draining within
Madness ain't got no fragrance, this foray in descent

Always played in a sense
All this plague in intent
It's a strain to sustain, I feel vague in ascent

How you maim innocence
I just stay on defense
All the rage I contain day to day is immense

Compromise at every corner, except those givin' me peace
This is well, suited anxiety with nary a crease
Acceptance I been receiving tends to be on a lease
All these wolves in sheep's clothing I grew weary with ease

Before I breakthrough, might have to break down
This is the one loop, I can't create sounds
Slow dance in quick sand, trying to escape now
Seems each of my moods...got the shakes now

Wish I could vacate foul, replicate how
You excavate me, play so innate how
You can proclaim love, give it away proud
Sunny disposition, eroded by stray clouds

I can't evade downs, who do I make proud
When I'm the same one, you taught to hate now
These shots I chase down, may replace frowns
But can't erase the, toll it takes out

But this realness isn't cosmetic
I been, grounded despite, any and all static
Couple this, within my vision, it feels erratic
Tryna paint, the picture, when it's monochromatic

I'll never be enough of what you demand of me
Accept it now, knowin' that it ain't what I planned to be
Bacardi blues, they can disfigure your vanity
Closer to polar, always sober holding humanity

Compromise at every corner, except those givin' me peace
This is well, suited anxiety with nary a crease
Acceptance been on a leash, I'm content to release
All these wolves in sheep's clothing, learned to parry the fleece